Another sleepless night.
I left my wonderland,my UK and went back to China to be a financial journalist. Just like the other day when I was chatting with Jenny in a great sunny day. Wind whispered and I was painting out what my future might be. I said that I would be some serious-like reporter, working for some financial department while, she thought I was not that right for a position like that. "You are never that kind of person. But I admire ur plan."
But I did it.
Just like most people in my class. She also looked at me as some pretty little things, young , good-looking and simple, with a full in head of fashion icons. "I think you can get a job from a fashion magzine, which is perfect for your kinda people. "
My kinda. Like I was a supersize walking-Barbe, customized for those muscular guys who always have their male hormone overmuch. Like they will like my long slim legs under my mini skirt. Like nobody ever care about if I HAVE BRAIN.
I still remember how hurt and insulting it was when the shity German guy in my class treat me like an easy girl, open enough to have one-night-stand together, while I, stupid enough to believe he might want me to be his soulmate.And the Chinese girl who never consider herself a Chinese. She said she never talk to Chinese or speak any Chinese language, whilst she only had been in the UK for 3 years.
All are big liars. The whole class never told the truth. THEY DO NOT CARE ABOUT US. Those so-call friendly internationalism. They identified me as empty doll, but never prove if their conclusion are legitimate.
I wanna shout to them, I wanna prove that they are too arrogant.
But I did not do that. I did not even show any of my indignation. Because time can tell.
So that I got a internship in the FT. So that I am now a financial reporter.
And I will do more.
Not just a financial reporter in a top one financial newspaper in PRC, but a great English columnist in a world-famous newspaper like the Times, or the UStoday.
I will give them a big smile instead of showing my anger to those who ever look down upon me.
I will.